I tiptoed my way to the living room in an oversized shirt after spending the past three hours with West. It took us ten minutes to recover before tearing at each other again after that first time. I’d suspected we could have gone all night if it wasn’t for West running out of condoms.

Grams was asleep on the couch, snoring softly, her lips pinched in stern disapproval. I scooped up the tiny woman like she was a toddler, carrying her up to her bedroom. It was probably a weird visual to an outsider, but I’d gotten used to it over the years.

Savannah Shaw had the childlike quality of not waking up when she was put to bed. I’d been doing it for a while now. Even before Grams began losing touch with reality. When she still worked two jobs to support us. She’d always fall asleep on the couch. At first, I’d woken her up so she could go to bed—our sofa was narrow, tattered, and itchy—but she’d always wake up for good and end up cleaning the house, doing the dishes, or folding the laundry. With time, I mastered the art of carrying her to her room and tucking her in.

After I put Grams in her bed, I went back to my room. It was dark, hot, and damp, the scent of sex and man lingering in the air. The iced tea glasses I’d brought hours ago remained untouched, framed by little pools of sweat on my nightstand. West was sprawled in my bed, his arms tucked behind his head, his eyes trained on my ceiling, which had been freshly painted four years ago. He was shirtless, his lower parts covered haphazardly with my blanket. I took a mental photo of him like this, in my territory, calm and content.

My gut wouldn’t let me believe this picture-perfect moment would last.

He patted an invisible space next to him. “Join me, Tex.”

“You’re not leavin’ much room.” I ran my eyes along his frame from the doorway. A lazy smile spread over his face.

“Guess you’ll have to get on top of me, then.”

It was still mind-blowing to me that he looked past my scars. Of course, he hadn’t seen the true extent of their ugliness under my makeup, but they were still there nonetheless. I slid on top of him, bracketing his waist with my thighs, squeezing as I ground over his erection through my blanket.

He groaned, kneading my butt cheeks.

“Pretty sure my dick’s got skid marks at this point. Up for a fourth round?”

“We ran out of condoms.” I laughed throatily.

“I’ll pull out.”

“Are you insane?”

“Horny. Which must be technically the same, because I’ve never suggested that in my entire life.”

“We’re not doin’ that.”

“Why not? I’ll be fast.”

“You’re really selling this to me.” I rolled my eyes.

He laughed. “Fast to pull, not to finish.”

I ran a hand over his forehead, cheeks, and chin, leaning down to kiss the tip of his nose. He was perfect. Every single part of him. Unmarred, smooth, and striking.

“We’ll do it again soon. And be safe about it,” I whispered.

“Promise,” he demanded, covering my hands with his on his chest so I couldn’t move. I thought about the promise he’d made me earlier tonight. To never break my trust.

“Promise.” I smiled.

We snuggled after that. I lay on top of him, skin-to-skin, my ear pressed against his pec, listening to the steady drum of his heart. I thought he fell asleep as the room grew dark.

Then he spoke. “Are you ever going to tell me what happened to you? And no, I’m not asking because I saw your scars today. I’m asking because you act like it never happened, yet you let that shit define you. Every. Single. Day.”

My breath caught in my lungs. Here we go.

It was one of the reasons why I hadn’t gotten close to anyone since what happened. Avoiding the questions, the confessions, the ugly truth behind the uglier scars. But didn’t West deserve a bit of honesty after everything we’d been through?

He did make a promise to me, even though he’d sworn to never do that.

I opened my mouth, not sure what was going to come out of it.

“Nobody knows exactly what happened the night of the fire.”

His chest flexed beneath my head, like I’d knocked the air out of him.

“Rumors around town spread like wildfire, but nothin’ had been confirmed, and I’d like to keep it that way. That’s why I don’t advertise it.”

Plus, reliving the worst night of my life wasn’t exactly my favorite pastime.

I twirled the flame ring around my finger, watching it intently, and suddenly hating it with a passion.

Hating Courtney for never giving it to me in person.

For not being there when the bandages came off.

For not taking responsibility for what she’d created—me.

West stroked my hair. My yellow and gold locks fanned across his bronzed skin. It looked beautiful. Like the sunset.

He should marry a blonde. The thought came out of nowhere, clogging up my throat. Like who, you?

“There’s not advertising it, and there’s not acknowledging it ever happened. I’ve known you for months, and you haven’t mentioned it,” West said.

I closed my eyes. “What do you want to know?”

“Everything. I want to know everything, Tex.”

One more tiny breath.

One last kiss to his chest.

Then I dove in, telling him what only Karlie and Marla knew.

“It was just another night. A Tuesday, actually. It always surprises me, how the days that reshape and change our lives forever start so ordinary and unassuming. Grams was workin’ two jobs at the time. Her day job was at a cafeteria in a middle school in town, and her afternoon job was helpin’ out at the local grocery store. But she still insisted on cookin’ me homemade meals and being there for my cheerleadin’ gigs and my plays. She was exhausted. And forgetful. All the freakin’ time.”

I took a deep breath, pushing through the details. It was like going uphill in the midst of a snowstorm.

“I had a boyfriend at the time. His name was Tucker. He was a football player. Popular, handsome, comes from a good, known family here in Sheridan. He stayed the night that day. He stayed the night often, but when Grams came home, he’d slip out through my bedroom window, so by the time she woke me up in the morning with waffles, he wasn’t there wrapped around me. She called him The Octopus,” I recalled, a small smile tugging at my lips. “Since the day she found him in my bed, our limbs were tangled together.”

“We can skip the parts where other guys touch you,” West grumbled.

“The window was rusty, so it made a cracklin’ sound I’d gotten used to.”

I felt him nodding, but he didn’t say anything. My chest hurt. Each word that passed through my mouth felt like chewing and swallowing glass.

“I was asleep when it happened. Grams came home, probably late. She fixed herself some gin and tonic, lit a cigarette, and sat downstairs. Finished her drink and went up to her room.

“The worst part was that I heard the crackling sound, after the cigarette ember caught and moved across the couch, but I was so tired, I thought it was the sound of the window when Tucker sneaked out, not knowing that he’d left an hour before Grams came home.”

The memory was fresh and real, the scent of the fire assaulted my nostrils, my lungs filling with black smoke. I could see what happened next vividly behind my eyelids. I opened my eyes in the dark, my heart galloping against West’s chest. He secured his arm over my back, pressing me so deeply against him, I thought I was going to drown in his body.