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“I don’t think so,” he says. “My parents told me and Priya that we can decide if we want their help or not.”
“Oh. Okay.” I hold up the menu, trying to cover the relief spread across my lips. I mean, it’s not like I’m going to marry the guy. Or maybe I will someday! Who knows? But that’s on the table still. So that’s nice, I think.
“Anyway, my parents couldn’t have kids for the longest time. It’s not like all they ever wanted was kids. My mom was a literature professor up until she retired a few years ago, and my dad’s an engineer. Not having kids was a bummer, but they like being the cool aunt and uncle, too. Then when my mom was forty-three and my dad was forty-eight, they had Priya. According to my dad, she was their miracle. And then two years later, I was their surprise. My mom gave me her maiden name, Malik.” He pronounces it differently than me and all of our teachers do. It sounds like Mah-lick instead of Maleak. “She has four sisters and no brothers, so it was her way of passing it on.”
“That’s amazing.” I wince a little. “But have I been mispronouncing your name this whole time?”
He laughs. “Well, I answer to both pronunciations. Even my sister pronounces it the way you do. Unless she’s pissed, then she pronounces it like our parents and my aunties.”
“That’s such a great story about your parents, though.”
His sparkling-white teeth peek out from behind his lips as he smiles. “Yeah.” He nods along. “Yeah, it sort of is. So they’re just a little more chill, I guess. Priya thinks it’s because they’re older and they’ve watched all our cousins grow up.”
“What can I get ya?” asks Lupe as she makes her way over to our table. Her uniform is a bright mustard-colored dress with a thick black belt and black piping on every edge. I immediately like her, and I think it’s because the woman is built like a snowman and that’s not too far off from my apple-shaped body.
I glance down at the menu. “I’ll take the funny-face pancakes and a side of hash browns and a root beer, too.”
Malik takes my menu and joins it with his behind the mini jukebox. “Waffles and grits, please.”
Lupe clicks her tongue. “Good choice, hon. What to drink?”
“Dr Pepper.”
“Got it,” says Lupe as she turns back for the kitchen.
A group of greasy-looking guys pours in from what I’m guessing was a shift on one of the oil rigs outside of town. “Sit wherever you like,” says Lupe. “Bathroom’s in the back if you want to wash up first.”
I watch as they all file past us for the restrooms, and most of them do that Southern gentlemen’s nod I’ve seen my whole life.
I slide to the end of the booth and study the jukebox for a moment. “We should play a song,” I say.
I reach into my purse for a quarter.
“It’s free,” says Malik.
“What? Really?”
He nods. “Told you this place was worth keeping hidden.”
I scroll through until I land on “Under the Boardwalk.”
“Oh yes!” shouts Lupe from the kitchen. “Play ‘Brown Eyed Girl’ next!”
“Okay!” I call back, not sure if she can actually hear me. I scroll through until I find her request.
“Thanks for coming out with me tonight,” says Malik.
“I like this place,” I tell him. “And I like you.”
I hold my breath, waiting, waiting, waiting. I think I’ve been holding my breath since the Sadie Hawkins dance when he kissed me on the cheek.
He licks his lips and sucks in a breath through his teeth. “I like you, too,” he finally says. Out loud. To my face. Without a single screen between us.
The table rocks as Lupe slides our plates across the surface. “Funny-face pancakes,” she says, “a side of hash browns, and waffles and grits. And a DP for the gentleman and a root beer for the lady!”
We both look up and say thank you in unison.
After she leaves, neither of us says anything else. We eat our food, which is amazing, or maybe it’s just this moment that makes everything taste so good. I smile the whole time. I smile harder than my funny-face pancakes.
On our way out the door, Malik takes my hand as I walk down the steps. His hand is slick with perspiration. It reminds me of when he escorted me for the pageant. At the time I couldn’t tell whose hands were sweating, because I was more anxious than a hummingbird. Now, understanding how shy he really is, I see what a big challenge that was for him.
After I take the last step, I expect him to let go, but he doesn’t. He holds my hand as we walk to the car, bathed in warm light from the Bee’s Knees. His car is parked just outside the pool of light, and when he walks me to the driver’s-side door, I eye the pitch-black flatlands that surrounds us. The sky above is stitched with endless stars, and I think that this would be the perfect moment for us to share a kiss. A real one. One on the lips.
Because he’s been so brave tonight in ways that are not comfortable for him, I turn to Malik and say, “Remember . . .” I take a deep breath. “Remember my painkiller-induced text messages from last weekend?” I try not to sound as mortified as I feel.
He snickers to himself. “How could I forget?”
“Well, I still want to kiss your face.” I say it too fast, before I can stop myself.
I think I hear him gulp. “You do?” he asks.
I inch closer, my mint-green-and-black polka-dot hand-painted Keds kicking up loose dirt.
“I really do.” And I kiss him. I touch my lips to his, which are soft and maple-syrup flavored.
His lips press into mine and both his hands trace up my arms to my shoulders and then up my neck until he’s cradling my face in his hands just like in all the movies I love so much. I fumble with my hands, unsure of what they should be doing or where they should go, until I just let them drop down by my sides. My whole body goes numb in a wonderfully tingly way, and for a moment I think Malik is actually holding me steady with his lips.
I pull back, because if I don’t, we’ll be here for days. He takes my hands in his, like he’s unwilling to end our physical contact entirely.
“I liked that,” he says. “Very much.”
“Maybe we could do it again sometime?” I ask before I lean in for one more kiss. And this time I even sneak in a little tongue.
On the way home, we talk about small things like class and Uncle Vernon’s gym and how Malik goes to Portland and San Diego every summer, because most of his family lives in those two places. And he tells me about how his dad moved here for an engineering job but actually took it because he’s always been obsessed with westerns and has always wanted to live in this part of Texas or Arizona or New Mexico. His mom hates it, but their compromise is that they’ll move to a breezy beach town when his dad retires after both Malik and his sister are out of college.
We listen to more music, and when there are a few more songs he wants me to hear, we take a couple extra laps around my neighborhood as he holds my hand.
When he pulls up in front of my house, I let out a big yawn that I’ve been sitting on for a while. It’s already three in the morning. I don’t have to be at the gym until noon, but I know that tonight I’ll barely be able to sleep.
In his car, we share one more kiss. And this one feels more urgent, like we’re trying to hold on to something we’re not quite sure we can re-create.
When I crawl back in through the window, I lose my balance and somersault inside, nearly knocking over my nightstand in the process. It sounds like an elephant is bowling just down the hall from my parents.
I sit there in the dark for a moment, expecting one of them to rush in. But nothing. I slip back into my pj’s and crawl into bed. I can’t shake my disbelief. Malik and I went on a date. I think it’s safe to call it a date. He said he liked me—with his mouth! Then he used that same mouth to kiss me. After I kissed him first, which—OH MY GOSH—I’m just realizing is a thing I did. (Willowdean—and maybe even Callie, too!—would be so proud, I bet.) And I snuck out for the first time ever and I didn’t even get caught.