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Willowdean nods. “I don’t mind cleaning as long as it’s not my room. Or anything adjacent to my room.”
“That’s a mood I can get into,” I say.
We all fan out into different parts of the room. After a few minutes of working, Willowdean lets out a sigh.
Amanda puts an arm around her. “You could try talking to him again.”
Willowdean pulls a latex glove over her hand. “It’s kind of hard to talk to someone who’s not talking back to you.”
Hannah snaps her fingers in agreement.
“I don’t get it,” I say. “You’re mad because he invited you to prom?”
Willowdean begins to pluck trash off the ground and put it into the trash bag Amanda is holding out for her. “He’s so hot and cold. One minute, he’s ghosting me, and the next, he’s doing these huge grand gestures like asking me to prom in front of a restaurant full of people. We would be at work and he would just run off after our shift when we would normally hang out, or he would be busy texting other people when he’d invited me over, and when I asked if it was another girl, he was, like, offended that I’d even think that. What else was I supposed to think? And now prom is coming up and I don’t have a date and I never thought I’d ever care about that, but I guess I do.” Her nostrils flare as she lets out a loud huff.
“If it makes you feel less alone, I am very, very much dateless and I’d love to hang with you at prom,” I tell her.
“Me too!” says Amanda. “It’ll be great. We’ll all be together. Why is it that we work so hard to get through twelve years of school and somehow the pinnacle of it all depends on whether or not you have a date for one random night?”
“She’s not wrong,” I say.
Amanda tips her invisible cap to me.
Willowdean musters a smile and nods. “Thanks, y’all.”
“Cherry Bomb” comes on through the speaker, letting me know this is definitely Clem’s playlist, and Hannah cranks the volume up. “Less talk. More work!”
After a few songs, Tucker jogs into the room, sweat beading down his jaw. “Sorry I’m late,” he says, trying to catch his breath.
I hand him my dustpan. “Did you run here?”
“Uh, yeah, actually, I did,” he says, slumping against a collapsing desk.
“In jeans?” It’s hot enough today that you could break a sweat sitting perfectly still. Running in jeans? That’s asking for swamp ass.
“I think the people of Clover City would prefer I keep my pants on.”
“Speak for yourself,” says Willowdean from across the room with a laugh.
The blush in Tucker’s cheeks spreads up his ears, or maybe he’s just flushed from his two-mile run. “I was having car trouble, so I left the truck at school and hoofed it.”
“You could’ve called me,” I tell him, even though I’m even more pissed now that he’s late, and having to give him a ride after that incident in the parking lot would have made my day even worse.
“I didn’t want to bother you,” he says as he lifts the edge of his T-shirt up to wipe the sweat off his face, giving the whole room a look at his abdomen, which isn’t jacked but is much more defined and tan than anything below the collar of my shirt has ever been.
“Or you didn’t want to be seen with me?” I ask, very clearly remembering the way he refused to look at me in the parking lot and determined to not be swayed by the sight of his chest for the second time in the last month.
He grits his teeth but says nothing.
I hand over my broom. “I think I’m going to pass the broom torch to Tucker and start working on those windows outside,” I say. “I could use some air.”
Tucker takes the broom and stands there while I grab some supplies to take with me.
Clem eyes me thoughtfully. “You want some company?”
“Nah, you stay here.”
I take my window cleaner and squeegee outside to pout in private.
From inside the sanctuary, Pastor Rich and Sheila are singing along to the Beach Boys while they paint once-faded walls a crisp but warm shade of white.
Church was always a social thing for my parents, but once Clem and I came out, we all sort of drifted away from Sunday service. And honestly, it was for the best. We wouldn’t have been welcome anyway. But this little place doesn’t seem so awful. Maybe a church that hosts a support group for parents of queer kids can’t be all bad.
The door around the front of the building creaks and I hold my breath in anticipation of who it might be.
“Hiya,” Clem says as she turns the corner. “Not who you were hoping?”
“I don’t know. Maybe. Yes.”
She takes the squeegee from my hand. “I wipe. You spray.”
“Yes, ma’am,” I say, and knock my hip into hers.
“Spill it,” she says. “What’s the deal with you and this guy?”
“I think we hate each other. Or I thought we did. And then I saw him that night at the Hideaway and—”
She gasps and in a whisper voice, says, “Oh my God! I knew that was him. I saw him from across the room and tried pointing him out to Hannah, but he was gone.” She leans back, arms crossed. “Huh. Tucker Watson is into the menfolk? I had no idea! He’s so . . .”
“Straight!” I finish for her. “Or not, I guess. I don’t know.”
“Well, did you talk to him about it?”
I shrug. “Sort of. But I didn’t really know how to be like, so were you just spectating at the gay bar or were you participating?”
Clementine stares at me dumbfounded. “I guess he could have been there . . . to be there, but what eighteen-year-old straight boy goes to a gay bar to just . . . go?”
“I know. And he’s been really hard to read . . . but sometimes, for just a moment, he says the exact right thing, and it makes me feel like . . . my whole body is glowing.” I hate myself a little bit for even saying that out loud, but there it is.
“Waylon,” she says, her voice soft and patient. “I want you to be happy. I want you to fall in love and find something and someone that brings you the kind of joy you only see in movies. But I can’t watch you fall for another guy who’s still in the closet.”
I shake my head. “I can’t. I won’t. Everyone’s on their own time, but I think I might finally be finding my place, and it’s definitely nowhere near any closets. Unless it’s an immaculately organized closet Marie Kondo style with my dream wardrobe.”
“I love mess,” Clem says solemnly, quoting the goddess Marie Kondo herself.
“But we don’t love other people’s half-in-the-closet messes.”
“Amen,” she says.
“Besides, I won’t have you here to pick up the pieces.”
Her lips puff into a frown.
“No, I’m sorry,” I say. “I didn’t mean that in a passive-aggressive asshole way. I meant it in a literal way. I don’t want to say the idea has grown on me, but . . . I think you should go to Georgia.” The words are out of my mouth before I have too much time to think about them. I’ve felt this moment slowly dawning on me for a little while now. “Not that you needed my permission.”