The Great Alone Page 21
When they reached the guest dock in the harbor, with fishing boats creaking and bobbing all around them, Mrs. Walker paired the students up and assigned them to the canoes. “Matthew. Leni. The green one is yours. Put on your life vests. Matthew, make sure Leni is safe.”
Leni did as she was told and climbed down into the back end of the canoe, facing the bow.
Matthew stepped down after her. The canoe rattled and creaked as he dropped into it.
He sat down facing her.
Leni didn’t know much about canoeing, but she knew that was wrong. “You’re supposed to face the other way.”
“Matthew Denali Walker. What in the hell are you doing?” his mother said, gliding past him, with Moppet in her canoe. “Have you had a seizure or something? What’s my name?”
“I wanted to talk to Leni for a sec, Mom. We’ll catch up.”
Mrs. Walker gave her son a knowing look. “Don’t be long. It’s school, not your first date.”
Matthew groaned. “Oh, my God. You are so weird.”
“I love you, too,” Mrs. Walker said. Laughing, she paddled away. “Come on, kids,” she yelled to the other canoes. “Head for Eaglet Cove.”
“You’re staring at me,” Leni said to Matthew when they were alone.
Matthew laid his paddle across his lap. Waves slapped at their canoe, made a hollow, thunking sound as they drifted away from the dock.
She knew he was waiting for her to say something. There was only one thing to say. Wind combed through her hair, pulled corkscrew curls free of the elastic band that bound them. Red strands fluttered across her face. “I’m sorry about last night.”
“Sorry for what?”
“Come on, Matthew. You don’t have to be so nice.”
“I have no idea what you’re talking about.”
“My dad was drunk,” she said cautiously. The admission was more than she’d ever said aloud before and it felt disloyal. Maybe even dangerous. She’d seen some ABC Afterschool Specials. She knew that kids sometimes got taken away from unstable parents. The Man could break up any family for anything. She would never want to make waves or get her dad in trouble.
Matthew laughed. “They all were. Big whoop. Last year Mad Earl was so drunk he peed in the smokehouse.”
“My dad gets … drunk sometimes … and mad. He says stuff he doesn’t mean. I know you heard what he said about your dad.”
“I hear that all the time. Especially from Mad Earl. Crazy Pete isn’t too fond of Dad, either, and Billy Horchow tried to kill him once. No one ever found out why. Alaska’s like that. Long winters and too much drinking can make a man do weird things. I didn’t take it personally. My dad wouldn’t, either.”
“Wait. You mean you don’t care?”
“This is Alaska. We live and let live. I don’t care if your dad hates my dad. You’re the one who matters, Leni.”
“I matter?”
“To me you do.”
Leni felt light enough to float right out of the canoe. She had told him one of her darkest, most terrible secrets, and he liked her anyway. “You’re crazy.”
“You bet your ass I am.”
“Matthew Walker, quit yapping and start paddling,” Mrs. Walker yelled at them.
“So we’re friends, right?” Matthew said. “No matter what?”
Leni nodded. “No matter what.”
“Groovy.” Matthew turned around and faced the bow and started paddling. “I’ve got a cool thing to show you when we get where we are going,” he said over his shoulder.
“What?”
“The bogs will be full of frogs’ eggs. They’re completely slimy and gross. Maybe I can get Axle to eat some. That kid is pure crazy.”
Leni picked up her paddle.
She was glad he couldn’t see how big her smile was.
* * *
WHEN LENI STEPPED OUT of the schoolhouse, laughing at something Matthew had said, she saw her parents waiting for her in the VW bus. Both of them. Mama leaned out of the window and waved like she was trying out for a spot on The Price is Right.
“Jeez. You really get the royal treatment.”
Leni laughed and parted ways with him and climbed into the back of the bus.
“So, my little bookworm,” Dad said as they rattled along on the dirt road out of town. “What useful thing did you learn today?”
“Well. We went on a field trip to Eaglet Cove and collected leaves for a biology project. Did you know that baneberries will make you have a heart attack if you eat them? And arrowgrass will cause respiratory failure?”
“Great,” Mama said. “Now the plants can kill us, too.”
Dad laughed. “That’s great, Leni. Finally, a teacher who is teaching what matters.”
“I also learned about the Klondike Gold Rush. The RCMP wouldn’t let anyone cross the Chilkoot Trail unless they carried a stove with them. Carried. On their backs. But most of the miners who came up paid Indians to carry their supplies.”
Dad nodded. “The rich, riding the backs of better men. It’s the history of civilization itself. It’s what’s destroying America. Men who take, take, take.”
Leni had noticed her dad saying more and more things like this since meeting Mad Earl.
Dad turned into their driveway and rumbled bumpily along. When they reached the homestead, he parked hard and said, “Okay, Allbrights, today my girls learn how to shoot.”
He jumped out of the bus and dragged a bale of blackened, mildewed hay out from behind the chicken coop.
Mama lit up a cigarette. The smoke formed a gray corona above her blond hair. “This should be fun,” she said without joy.
“We have to learn how. Large Marge and Thelma both said so,” Leni said.
Mama nodded.
Leni moved to the driver’s seat. “Uh. Mama? You noticed that Dad is sorta … prickly about Mr. Walker, right?”
Mama turned. Their eyes met. “Is he?” she said coolly.
“You know he is. So. I mean. You know how he can get if you … you know. Flirt.”
Dad thumped on the front of the bus so hard Mama flinched and made a little sound, like a bitten-off scream. She dropped her cigarette and scrambled down to find it.
Leni knew her mama wouldn’t respond anyway; that was another facet of their family weirdness. Dad blew his temper and Mama somehow encouraged it. Like maybe she needed to know how much he loved her all the time.